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Friday, December 4th, 2009
3:48 am	just dont.. want to sleep alone tonite. for some reason i dont want anyone touching me, holding me..anywhere near me lately but tonite.. i just..want to snuggle in someones arms and feel safe... sucks. Current Music: raining all the time- kill hannah (Comment on this)
Friday, November 13th, 2009
4:28 pm	i think.. i have issues..ive been writing the most twisted fairytales ever..i mean..its good fro the book..but not too sure wat it says about me. now i need an unbiased proofreader..kus..mi last one went nuts. go me. (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 7th, 2009
12:59 am	Breathe You In Tomorrow came too soon I barely made it through today Still empty inside I guess nothing's really changed I'm still afraid to feel 'Cause I cannot take the pain I'm still afraid to feel Afraid to lose someone again I wish that somehow I could leave My past behind My fears behind If I could only breathe you in Every drop of you I guess it's time to face the truth And admit my past mistakes Come to terms with all that's wrong with me And all the things I'll never be Why am I afraid to feel? Afraid of what is true? Why am I afraid to feel? When all I really want is you? To taste your skin To share your thoughts Would never be enough for me ~stabbing westward~ starting to see a trend..everyone i care about winds up dead..crazy..or *poof* gone. not really bitching about it..just..starting to notice it.. i think..thats..really...sad. i feel like laying on the ground in a pile of crunchy leaves and smoking a clove..breathing in the scent of autumn..the feel of the crisp air with a tinge of cold..the way your breath feels like you can almost see it..that you will soon. how you can see the smoke float across the moon like a cloud from your lips.. i just want to feel..like..im..here. because i dont animore..no matter how much i hurt..or fall..or try to connect.. i just..dont..feel here anymore. its strange... Current Music: stabbing westward (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 28th, 2009
5:34 pm	"in the middle of the night.. ..are you calling out for me? in the middle of the night..cry yourself to sleep.." Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
Monday, October 12th, 2009
3:10 am	i hate... crying when u know ure crying for a reason...but not what that reason is. epic fail. im so glad im heading on a bunch of roastrips soon.. philly sometime in nov maybe, and LA early dec def..then pheonix in jan. yay insanity! Current Music: hate in the box..keep switching songs. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 4th, 2009
12:50 pm	lalalalala... tired. need to shop for costumes and a pink dress for christines wedding... head is driving me insane heading to austin today. renn faire soon!! that is all.... *delerium setting in* (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 30th, 2009
2:33 pm	happy endings... i dont beleive in them. theyre a nice lovely, vapid thought ..but get too caught up in them and u'll wake up someday wondering whatever happened to your life..no pretty castles, and no fluffy clouds..you're surroundded by empty bottles, crumpled newspapers and if you're lucky..some leftover pills. but who knows..maybe that is a happy ending.. its sounding better and better to me.... im not quite sure about anything anymore..anyone who was safe is suddenly complicated, those i trusted most turn at the first meoment of weakness...i can count the people i still have on one hand and still have fingers left over. sometimes it makes me cry sometimes i like it better this way. i just want to get out of here...what kept me in this state? one person. one wonderful , beautiful, person whos now ashes in the wind. i just want to start over..get away. start running and never look back. find somewhere where no one knows me and no one will. somtimes my thoughts just take over and run away with me. everyones got their problems. and when i cant even help the ones i want to its a sad sad day. theres no real point to this. to any of this really. might just get in a car and go. but possibly need food first..that might be the dizzy feeling. then again with me u never know.. Current Mood: blank (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 16th, 2009
4:43 pm	i is.. the sick. i feel like uugh..need to work..kant work on custom orders becasue i have no bleach...and no money. and things are swimming in front of me..i really dont feel good.. animews.. i miss NC..i miss hollee and khrist and kat and skrinkle and nick and the apt..i miss treyface and sitting out on the trampoline with the skary cupacabr-llamas.. mew..doesnt feel the same without them i should be back in october..might just be to visit because im really not sure how pple are doing out here and i want to just..make sure everythings ok befre i leave. but i will be out there alot.. dealing with the wonderful issues of ..well.. um..i dont even know wat to call it lets just say u open up and try something new..or give someone a chance and they'll fuck u over >.< i need to get a way for a bit.. Current Mood: cold (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 6th, 2009
1:53 pm	"you're an office park without any trees..." mew..back in texas. its been an interesting getting back process..nearly not making it on the plane lol...nny picked me up at the airport with a car full of ranch, cheese graters, vodka and cloves which i totally dove right into..and got stuck with my head under the seat and my ass in the air..i am all that is grace and classiness.o yea...animews..got home..got to see my girl roomate..missed her uuuber lots...went to christines where i had to swear to wear a pink dress to her wedding complete with pink hair..dear gods..i will never forgive anyone who mentions this after the fact..i swear...but so got to see steven in his new yachting hat..and apparetnly he missed me..cus..i now have a knife hole through my bra..he tried to cut off my nipple, i have bite marks on my tit and my boobs were exposed while on cam numerous times..yea..he missed me... >.< and while nny passed out on the couch..i got to call my blond and get to see her!! <33 then the past two nights ive been drinking and hanging out with roomates..last nite there was a party so jordy and i got ourselves drunk before hand and hun out with chrisine..there are also pictures of me doing something i swore never to do..gahh..i held a babi..goddamnit...while i was sober..dont worry..but the lil goober liked me..kept crying whenever i wasnt holding it..and theres pictures!! GAHHH. animews..moving on...got smashed..wandered around with christine and jordy drunk off our asses girl talking the whole time..was uber fun. i missed everyone alot. even tho i still miss everyone in NC alot..alot alot. so..thats pretty much the updates so far...shooting alot, working alot...should be in austin by the 15th to see everyone there.. other than that..*dances wildly* that is all... Current Music: panzer ag - machine gun gogo (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 3rd, 2009
1:33 pm	i would just like to say.. that i really really want candy corn pumpkins!! *dances around room* fall is almost here..faveyist time ever..mew!!! *bouncebouncebounce* leaves changing colors and pumpkins and scarecrows and ghosties and yay!! and im soooo gonna be back in nc to see leaves change...yay fall!!! mew..leaving nc today..gonna miss it alot but ill bbs.. texas here i come! *dreaming of autumn leaves,lil ghosties, candy corn and black cats* Current Mood: chipper Current Music: singing in my head! (Comment on this)
Monday, August 31st, 2009
4:43 pm	mew..eating a bagel and updating randomness while trey cleans.. yes..its an excititng life. still in NC..coming home on the third. ive been here two months..weirdness rite? animews..lots of new stuff and random things have been experienced in mi time out here..imma miss it. but i kant wait to see everyone in tx, and its about time..well trey and i have been working on our clothing alot, and its going realli realli well! we have a major photographer who wants to shoot the suff for the website, and i think if we stick with it we're actually gonna do realli well..im excited! and ive been shooting alot with the uber smexiness that is khrist which has been realli fun..other than mi feet falling asleep while tied to an IV pole while she and the photog smoked!! :P so yea...fun times. cant wait to come back and shoot for the site, and hang out and snuggle more..but onto other things! ummm..getting mi chest piece done when i get back and get into austin..taking some hyatt and kitti time..Family time..freind time.gahh its gonna feel sooo weird without everyone out here tho..imma make lil NC pple cutouts for mi room..=^.^= umm./.theres alot more thats been going on and stuff but...um..i is still the tired..and..wathcing trey attempt to move this wheelchair..but...yea..ill be home soon..clothes stuffs going well and yea..im still living..go kitti! Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: i wanna hear jesus and the mary chain!!! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 25th, 2009
4:54 am	late night garbage lyrics... Watching the days slip by so fast Knowing our fate has long been cast Working our fingers to the bone Cause nobody loves you when youre gone Coughing up feeling just for you To find something real to hold on to But there is a hole inside my heart Where all of my love comes pouring out. You know youll always be my man But grab yourself sweetness where you can Cause sooner or later were going to die Left to the dogs under the sky I cracked a piece of broken glass Coughing up feeling just for you To find something real to hold on to But there is a hole inside my heart Where waves of my love come tumbling out. You say that all the good is gone That I have forgotten who I am Free as a bird Wild as the wind But somehow I cannot let you in late nights like these..sometimes bring back feelings u thought uve laid to rest..raise questions u never thought ud want to know the answers too..and make you think things u never really knew u felt... but in other news..imma block that out by playing with our new kittie and making new clothes..and "the oblongs" is on! <33 snuggles tonite..<3 Current Mood: strange.. Current Music: garbage (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 24th, 2009
12:36 am	i think.. ..i think too much. >.< in other news..we found a kittie! (name is currently in dispute..but imma keep calling it A.T. "Apocalyptic Tangerine"), work has been SUCKING ass but we've all been doing our best, i should be buying my plane ticket tomm and getting home soon, hollee and i realized we are awesome and amazing shoppers, got to see kat (<3), treyface is coming back to NC (=^.^=) so i gets to see him soon and go do fun clubby stuffs or head out there, khrist's car got hit so we searched the whole complex for the car that hit her (grrface), mi ear is infected, yay nick came over tonite (:D), im determined to go out and do stuff later this week and i need to work more on making clohtes kus i have more orders..theres prob more..but thats a rundown. and o..for everyone hating me or giving me shit for the way i am, things im doing, or places im currently at.. at this point... either shut the fuck up or get outta my life. u know how i am and what i do..and i never claimed to be anything im not. so deal kus im not animore. animews..i miss everyone, thinking alot and kinna working stuff out.. and thats all for now kids!! <333 Current Mood: creative Current Music: afi- endlessly (Comment on this)
Friday, August 21st, 2009
12:09 am	we rescued kat.. now...4 bottles of wine.. some ambien and im currently discussing my decision to not do anything with anyone. but im not sure of what im discussing anymore. pills are amazing. and im pretty sure that peoples motor skills are deteriorating... and ive just been told that im getting molested tonite... MEEP this is kitti..not sober. over and out.. (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 15th, 2009
1:18 pm	early morning musings..well..early for me >. so im awake. i think im not sure yet.. woken up by treyface cass and kenny banging on the door..still not sure of whether i was awake when i anwered it or not but all i know is that the inflatable jumpy castle thing outside needs to be mine. and it shall be... animews.. cant go back to sleep fully..it sucks. just sitting here thinking. if i had to think about where my life was going this time last year..i never in a million years would have guessed id be where i am now. i guess no matter how sure u are your life is going a certain way, or how much planning you put into it..life can never be certain. things happen that you never expected, or sometimes even knew you wanted until somethings right in front of your face. iunno..i used to plan things..or at least try to make my life go certain ways. i used to know where i wanted my life to end up...i used to have a goal. but i guess goals change..or at least ive learned that the most important goal you can have could turn into something so insignificant in just a few months. i still have things i know i really want or want to do...but..i just dont them be such a solid importance. if they happen they happen...that would be wonderful. if not..well..at least i know whats important to me at the moment and ill just take every day as it comes..and when things change again ill just go from there. seasons turn, people change..all that nonsense. who knows where ill be in another few months..who knows a few days from now. i know whats important to me now and ill just concentrate on that..but not so much that i might miss something new that i normally wouldnt have even paid attention to... i dont really know what the point of this was..probably that kitti should not be up this early and allowed to think and type. but i guess i just wanted to get things straight in my own head..if i concentrate too much on whats important to me now i might miss out on something thats going to matter alot more ..never rule out anything. mew..it makes sense in my head and now..im stealing that inflatable castle. and i desire waffle house.. *skips off* Current Music: singing scarling in my head.. (Comment on this)
Friday, August 14th, 2009
4:12 pm	randomness... still in NC working tonite..being uber responsible even tho i sooo wanna go with khrist to the shoot..responsible kitti! wokrking on clothes.. and i will be the only one out of the "goth brigade" at the club tonite..meep! i strip alone...:P meh..actually still deciding ..i mite just go to the shoot.. gahh i do not know yet.. ill figure it out... have AFI stuck in mi head lol AND I FOUND SOMEWHERE THAT STILL SELLS CLOVES!! <333333 well iunno if imma be working or not..but.. animews.. so imma sit here..singing in my head..smoke mi clove..figure out if im working or not..then take a shower and get ready to shoot or go to work... is my plan. and work all next week..have my ticket hopefully by midweek..and then after pples get back i can club and party and get tattooed till i leave :D yesyes.. Current Music: afi- love like winter (Comment on this)
Monday, August 10th, 2009
10:31 pm	stuck on julien k.. Someday You could fall out of place Out of line I hope you do I hope you could shine Be something true With your fucked up hair And your disco stare Yeah you're playing it cool So come on If you mean what you say I can play the same game I can't wait Someday Someday soon you'll fall Someday Someday Someday soon Someday You should find a place You can hide I hope you do I can see through the lie The lie that's you Your life is about control and you know It explains all the things that you do If you mean what you say I can play the same game I can't wait Someday Someday soon you'll fall Someday Someday soon Someday Someday soon you'll fall Someday you'll be something true Something true Couldn't be what you want So you settle for Something predictable Couldn't see who you were So you want me more So unpredictable Current Mood: not sure.. Current Music: someday- julien k (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 8th, 2009
8:01 pm	tralalala.. sitting around..really want to do something.. but we cant find a way to the Filth show.. so..im sitting here singing to mi bunnee while trey takes a bath been busy bleaching and selling lots of clothes..yay productivity. mew..feel like a panic attack is coming on but theres no reason. gahhh animews... need to think of something to do that is all. <3 Current Music: zombie girl - sex (im A) (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 5th, 2009
7:12 pm	sitting at the apt.. smoking cloves and listening to emilie autumn and eating ice cream.. thinking.. sometimes i think that thinking is not good for people like me.. but..then again.. it makes things more interesting. animews.. got ALOT of shoots coming up >.< working and saving money.. hopefully taking some time out and seeing freinds and resting for a bit but we'll see what happens. i wanna go mod out this dress..i has uber awesome ideas.. but is too lazee this is why i need to be motivated... i also hurt miself..in a very tardo way i kinna feel like kat rite now.. so im just gonna leave it at that..animews.. that is all. kitti randomness of the day..*dances off PS the video "flowers" by emilie simone is the CUTEST thing ever... Current Music: emilie simone.."buy you flowers" (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 3rd, 2009
1:55 pm	learning the Hydro dance and other random activities from last nite.. last nite was fun..finally took a nite off from work got to see freinds and meet new peoples.. had an epic dance party and tried to learn the Hydro dance.. went to waffle house... and watched "House of 1,000 Corpses" and got to snuggle.. i love my friends.. woke up wanting to murder the guy who came to fix our air and toilet..i do not like being woken up...but animews.. now either working tonite or working on selling prints and doing laundry and stuff..working till wed then heading out for a few day tea party of epicness.. and goddamnit..now im uber uber hungree and everyones gone and khrist is asleep again. gahhhhhh hungree hungree kitti. Current Mood: hungree!!! (Comment on this)